Emma’s little sister

As we wished, Emma’s gonna hv a little sister. I hope she would hv my dad’s beautiful eyes and his calm and gentle character. People say every child is different, I wonder how different would she be from her big sister.

Emma is super-active, so active, far beyond I can handle. Partly may because I’m pregnant, easily tired and sleepy. She loves music so much and sings and dances with it. She loves Girls Generation and Lady Gaga, she learns most of the words from the thymes I often played. Daddy says she started singing before she could speak properly, I think they progress simultaneously.

We are going home soon, so soon. And I’m sure she’ll be so loved and spoiled. I wish after her sister was born she wouldn’t feel too left-out as the family will be extremely busy with the little one. I’ll always be there for her, get her involved, might be as simple as sitting next to me and watching me milking Scarlet. Lots to read and learn. We’ll be alright.

啊,原来如此….

好久没更新了…每次从MSN过来, 研究半天也不知道怎么用. 终于,今天发现了,原来是需要登录的. 我居然一直想当然的认为本来就是登录了的…怪不得怎么点,点什么都只是’leave a comment’…

老天啊…

回国的日子手指头数的过来了,开始不安了,太多的问号了,兴奋还是有的,主要是吃的方面.

陌生的地方,陌生的人.慢慢适应吧.还好有EMMA,我就围着她转好了,反正她也离不开我.

Things in mind…

 

Rejections, rejections… It’s actually quite funny the way people reject. Some feel bad to say ‘no’ so they choose to murmur; some don’t want to say ‘yes’ but feel uncomfortable to say ‘no’ so they keep on repeting similar questions; some and who also my favourite type of rejections, tell you they are not interested or hang up straight away (save $$$ ah~~, muah!!); some who always will be my hatest type just want to chat, I do enjoy hanging up on them. I haven’t met those extremely rude ones yet, I’m kind of looking forward to cause I want to know how rude I will become=)

 

 

Why hasn’t Professor Collins replied?? I seriously want to do PhD in paediatrics!!

 

 

I love my life nowadays. Finally I’ve got to talk to someone daily, eventhough most of them don’t want to talk to me, I don’t care. I’ve got to talk to complete strangers everyday, and because they are strangers, whatever they say won’t hurt me inch and I could always fight back verbally when they are not nice. I AM IMMUNE~

Mom: My Choice, My Way

 

I’ve been considering for a while

To be a successor or fight my own war

Trust me I want to choose the easy path

But being your daughter, having your genes

I can not stand people’s admire without experiencing tough

 

I’ve been listening and obeying for years

I’ve always been protected by your strong wings

I’ve been comfortably living under the shades

But now I want to walk out into the sunshine

I may get burnt,

I may get tanned,

I may also enjoy absorbing the warnth surround

 

Mom, I’ve made my choice and I love it

I’ve chosen my way and I want to head towards the end

I’ve been on the jouney not for long

But I’ll manage to succeed from refusals and misunderstandings

I may not tell you the truth

I may try to cover when you have doubts

I’ll always wish for your acceptance and blessings

 

Mom, I love you

Love the career you’ve chosen

Love your persistence

Love everthing you’ve done for me

Now I’ve chosen mine

And I hope you will be open and happy for my hard work

In the end, we are both trying to improve the life of the ones that we LOVE

 

 

放心了

 

娃娃总算是settle in了. 从第一次到现在得有好几个月了吧. 上周一点也没哭没闹. 我这当娘的总算是放心了.

 

这些日子每每送她走, 我自己在家在外都提心吊胆的, ‘妈妈走了娃娃哭了多久阿’, ‘有没有好好的睡觉, 是不是一会儿就醒了哭着要奶喝’, ‘有没有好好吃东西’, 等等等等. 时不时地看手机, 生怕阿姨打来电话没听着. 

 

现在, 我总算可以安安心心踏踏实实的做自己的事情了…. 虽然只是一周一天….

Plans

 

Decisions, decisions.

 

Thinking of ‘future-to-be’ is so frustrated hence I decide to ‘go as it flows’. Leave it to ‘time’ and it will come out as it should be.

 

I’ve got a few short-term plans.

 

Plan 1. Since Emma is still not used to go to FDC 1/7. I’ll withdraw. New plan will be to put her under occasional care 2-3 hrs daily, hopefully this will work. Meanwhile I’ll make good use of that 2-3hrs free time to do Plan 2.

 

Plan 2. Back to uni preparations. I so want to teach Nutrition and Dietetics in China. The desire is so strong which sticks in my brain that made me have to face and accept hence work hard for it. My ultimate goal would be to teach at universities. And in order to get ready, I’ll need to do more study. It’s time to get my old books out and read Dietetic journals to find out my interests.

 

Dietetics is so narrow as it’s all about food but also wide as food can cause millions of reactions in the human body- goods and bads. I need to find a focus, a thesis in fact. I am not afraid of failures, as I call them trials-and-errors. I have a little bit more time than the average, therefore, why not make good use of it?

 

 

极致

 

周末，MONA一家三口吃早茶，旁边坐了一对白发苍苍的老头老太。过了一会儿，两个人互相搀扶着离开了。

 

老公：你说咱俩将来也会这样吗？

 

Mona：不会，你旁边儿肯定领着个年轻的。

 

老公沾沾自喜：哦？你是说那时候你已经被淘汰了？

 

Mona斩钉截铁：不！我就是那不老神话。

 

老公：靠，见过不要脸的没见过你这么不要脸的。

 

Mona：既然都不要了，那就得做到极致。

 

 

话说回来，两个人要是能一起活到老，该多好啊~~

Alice in wonderland

 

Mona：亲爱的，我特别喜欢Hatter，之前看书的时候没这么喜欢，看了电影特别喜欢。应该是演员诠释的特别好。

 

老公：你就喜欢疯子。

 

Mona：怎么这么说呢，我只是喜欢这个角色。

 

老公：你不是也喜欢加勒比海盗里边的那个疯子！

 

Mona：哦，你说Captian Jack Sprial阿。

 

老公：他不就是疯子么。

 

Mona：对哦。那你呢？

 

老公：要不怎么娶了你呢。

 

 

Alice in Wonderland的书我没买全？我看得怎么只是前面她小时候的事情呢？Lydia，是不是还有下一本跟电影剧情相符的？

 

 

 

Lydia, Happy Birthday

 

Here came my favourite month because of you

Here I am writing a happy birthday peom just for you

Yet again another year passed and we grew

In wisdom and in mood

 

You know my secrets and I have yours

With or without frequent contacts we are still as we were through years

Often I wonder how long our friendship will be

And the answer is I guess as long as our souls will live

 

Storming continuously in Sydney these days

What a resemblance of my 25 and your 26

Now you are moving on and I am calming down

Or were you trying to sound glad to keep me strong

 

So many stories wanted to tell

So many things needed to be spilled

So many tmes tried to call

To chat with you timelessly if reality could allow

 

You have your life and I am busy with mine

We are no longer youngsters but we are still fine

It is getting more and more certain in my mind

The love that we hold for each other is truely divine

 

Storms will be over and clouds will be gone

Stray bird will fly in my window and sing a song

The sun will appear and warmth will come

But before this let us enjoy the beautiful RAINBOW that we’ve been expecting for so long

 

 

Emma’s First Day at FDC

 

Terrible! The carer had to give me a call to pick her up early. Emma refused her to come closer, no food, no drink, no toys. She fell asleep in the play room in the afternoon due to tiredness, and woke up half an hour later asking for mommy. Again, no food, no drink, no toys could calm her down.

 

Took her to orientation today to get her more faimilar with everybody and at this time, she held me so tight like a koala and did not want to let down, whenever I did so, she started crying and shaking when I stepped away.

 

It was always hard with the first baby, every mom says so. Not only because of lack of experience, but also the L-O-V-E, the eager to hug and hold and cuddle and kiss, which also makes the child more sticked to us; the more we give, the more they want; the more we spoil, the more they like to be spoiled. And hence, harder it s to leave them.

 

But I don’t care. I love Emma, I want to hug and hold and cuddle and kiss her all the time, I love her in my arms and resting her head on my shoulder, I love the feeling of breastfeeding, I love the feeling of her following me around wherever I go. Things will be different with the second and thrid ones, I know it. Because they are not the first baby and never will be. Not that I won’t love them as much.

 

It’s hard for both of us, I knew it, and I deserve it. But I don’t regret spoiling her as she is my FIRST everever baby. We’ll get over it soon.