Emma’s First Day at FDC

 

Terrible! The carer had to give me a call to pick her up early. Emma refused her to come closer, no food, no drink, no toys. She fell asleep in the play room in the afternoon due to tiredness, and woke up half an hour later asking for mommy. Again, no food, no drink, no toys could calm her down.

 

Took her to orientation today to get her more faimilar with everybody and at this time, she held me so tight like a koala and did not want to let down, whenever I did so, she started crying and shaking when I stepped away.

 

It was always hard with the first baby, every mom says so. Not only because of lack of experience, but also the L-O-V-E, the eager to hug and hold and cuddle and kiss, which also makes the child more sticked to us; the more we give, the more they want; the more we spoil, the more they like to be spoiled. And hence, harder it s to leave them.

 

But I don’t care. I love Emma, I want to hug and hold and cuddle and kiss her all the time, I love her in my arms and resting her head on my shoulder, I love the feeling of breastfeeding, I love the feeling of her following me around wherever I go. Things will be different with the second and thrid ones, I know it. Because they are not the first baby and never will be. Not that I won’t love them as much.

 

It’s hard for both of us, I knew it, and I deserve it. But I don’t regret spoiling her as she is my FIRST everever baby. We’ll get over it soon.

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