Alice in wonderland

 

Mona：亲爱的，我特别喜欢Hatter，之前看书的时候没这么喜欢，看了电影特别喜欢。应该是演员诠释的特别好。

 

老公：你就喜欢疯子。

 

Mona：怎么这么说呢，我只是喜欢这个角色。

 

老公：你不是也喜欢加勒比海盗里边的那个疯子！

 

Mona：哦，你说Captian Jack Sprial阿。

 

老公：他不就是疯子么。

 

Mona：对哦。那你呢？

 

老公：要不怎么娶了你呢。

 

 

Alice in Wonderland的书我没买全？我看得怎么只是前面她小时候的事情呢？Lydia，是不是还有下一本跟电影剧情相符的？

 

 

 

Lydia, Happy Birthday

 

Here came my favourite month because of you

Here I am writing a happy birthday peom just for you

Yet again another year passed and we grew

In wisdom and in mood

 

You know my secrets and I have yours

With or without frequent contacts we are still as we were through years

Often I wonder how long our friendship will be

And the answer is I guess as long as our souls will live

 

Storming continuously in Sydney these days

What a resemblance of my 25 and your 26

Now you are moving on and I am calming down

Or were you trying to sound glad to keep me strong

 

So many stories wanted to tell

So many things needed to be spilled

So many tmes tried to call

To chat with you timelessly if reality could allow

 

You have your life and I am busy with mine

We are no longer youngsters but we are still fine

It is getting more and more certain in my mind

The love that we hold for each other is truely divine

 

Storms will be over and clouds will be gone

Stray bird will fly in my window and sing a song

The sun will appear and warmth will come

But before this let us enjoy the beautiful RAINBOW that we’ve been expecting for so long

 

 

Emma’s First Day at FDC

 

Terrible! The carer had to give me a call to pick her up early. Emma refused her to come closer, no food, no drink, no toys. She fell asleep in the play room in the afternoon due to tiredness, and woke up half an hour later asking for mommy. Again, no food, no drink, no toys could calm her down.

 

Took her to orientation today to get her more faimilar with everybody and at this time, she held me so tight like a koala and did not want to let down, whenever I did so, she started crying and shaking when I stepped away.

 

It was always hard with the first baby, every mom says so. Not only because of lack of experience, but also the L-O-V-E, the eager to hug and hold and cuddle and kiss, which also makes the child more sticked to us; the more we give, the more they want; the more we spoil, the more they like to be spoiled. And hence, harder it s to leave them.

 

But I don’t care. I love Emma, I want to hug and hold and cuddle and kiss her all the time, I love her in my arms and resting her head on my shoulder, I love the feeling of breastfeeding, I love the feeling of her following me around wherever I go. Things will be different with the second and thrid ones, I know it. Because they are not the first baby and never will be. Not that I won’t love them as much.

 

It’s hard for both of us, I knew it, and I deserve it. But I don’t regret spoiling her as she is my FIRST everever baby. We’ll get over it soon.

真没用啊

 

昨天刚兴高采烈的写了对新生活的向往，今天带EMMA去ORIENTATION，孩子跟其他小朋友玩的不错，我这个当妈的从头哭到尾，待了一个小时，哭了一个小时，真没出息。。。

 

跟老妈哭诉，舍不得。

 

唉，仔细想想，这样也好，送去一天，余下的六天肯定珍惜宝贝的了不得了。

 

就我这状态还上班呢，得了吧。。。还是再生一个比较实际。

终于

 

联络了FAMILY DAY CARE，打算把EMMA送去一天/周。让她多跟其他的小朋友接触接触也不错，免得长大成了我这种孤僻格格不入的性格。虽然已经有了基因，外界环境也起到了很大的作用啊。唉，怎么就跟我这么像呢，要不也不会选择送去给别人看了。或许就是因为我带反而会更糟吧。。。

 

WESTMEAD CHILDREN’S HOSP打了电话来，激动的我的小心肝儿跳的那个扑通啊，谁知道是说之前的PART TIME有人了，问我对12MON FULL TIME感不感兴趣。天底下还有这么好的事情。CV当然要递啊。到时候跟这次一样没戏心里也不觉得丧失良机。

 

唉，这种性格真讨厌啊，明明不怎么喜欢，可就是舍不得白白放弃，别人摊着了呢，我也无所谓；真是，要是见不得人家好吧，倒也说得过去；可就是与世无争啊，但又舍不得不差一脚。真够贱的。

 

丫头胆子大些了，去海盗船玩的时候，自己也敢往里面走了，太不容易了，从门口逛了1个月了。前两天更甚，见了个小孩儿，看来是看着顺眼的那种，啊啊啊的一路朝人家跑过去，把人家追的跑到了犄角旮旯里，吓跑了。。。之前也是，见到个坐在婴儿车里的小朋友，朝人家走去，就把人家给吓哭了，还是个小男孩儿。。。这世界啊，有EMMA这样害羞又胆小的，就有比她更害羞胆小的。。。

 

原本跟好朋友聊天，打算回国待待，拿出护照发现，已经过期俩月了。。。漫漫长路啊，这大使馆办事处怎么就开在这么不讨喜的地方呢。等EMMA上了托儿所我自个儿去吧。

 

醒了。。。

why so certain

 

Prediction or Illusion

Why am I so certain

that it’ll happen

 

Or perhaps

I am too longing for

it to happen

 

Wait till June

 

快呀快

 

说孩子1岁到1岁半发育最快，恩，对。

 

娃娃现在会说好多的词儿了，虽然不确切，Bird说Bard，Blue说Bue，之类，身为她老娘的我是分辨的清地~~~

 

每天出去散步，东跑跑，西窜窜，从不听我的，自然的吸引力忒大了。小草也摸摸，花儿也闻闻，石头也想往嘴里放，土地的味道她是尝过了。尤其钟爱障碍物，坑坑洼洼的地方最喜欢，越过去了，自己给自己鼓掌以资鼓励。跟她一起出来，我才发现原来地上也有这么多吸引小小灵魂的东西。

 

家周围的鸟非常多，Magpie，鹦鹉，ibis，等不知道名字的。最近刚买了一本关于动物的书，小家伙爱的了不得，因为里面有她看到就认出来了的小鸟们。

 

肚子饿了，去吃韩国烤肉，有空再续。。。